you were the guy that i can chill with, play temple run, take naps, or simply watch sports center. You were that guy that made me laugh and everytime we were together i love every minute of your company. You understood me. I miss you teasing me about always doing homework and being in Sinclair. I miss how you always be saying “wildin out” but most importantly i miss you, your company, text messages, and phone calls and texting me a “kissy face” before going to bed. We had that connection but i was in denial, afraid and screwed it up
I’m sorry, i really am
I can’t take back what I said, nor i regret what I have told you. Because I was just being honest. Honesty is the best policy right? I’m sorry if you think i lead you on, i really didn’t mean to. That was not my intention at all. Talking to my friends telling them what had happened, they all said the same thing “that i did sorta kinda lead you on”. But stupid me didn’t realize that till now. I thought we were on the same page, just enjoyed each other’s company, & nothing more, but i thought wrong because you like me more than just “friends”. I didn’t mean for that to happen. It’s flattering that you fell for me without me even trying, just being myself. That’s a good thing right there. I never meant to hurt you at all. You’re such a nice genuinely guy, you don’t deserve me, you deserve someone way better than me. My past is still haunting me, I’m just not ready for a relationship, or be serious with someone. I wish you’re able to read this, so you know how sorry i am. It stresses me and breaks my heart that you totally just cut me out of your life, i’m just a stranger now. I know it’s all my fault, but i wish you can forgive me and maybe in the future we can be friends. But for now, you’re just somebody that i used to know.
Hi dad. Remember that time when you tried to teach me how to ride a bike on the sidewalk and I kept falling? And then you finally took me to the parking lot at the park and it was just space I needed? I do. Remember all those times you cared for me even when I made you mad? I do. Remember that one time I stole your car and left for the entire day and you were so mad but I went and bought you clothes to buy you over when I got home and you weren’t as mad anymore? I do. I remember everything about you and what we did, but at this moment you don’t even remember my name or who I am. I know you’re strong and I’m sitting here crying while typing this. Please get better. Please.
love,
Your sonFor the people that don’t know, my father had a stroke recently and is also a diabetic now. Don’t wait til’ it’s too late to appreciate the people you love, especially your parents. They may make you insanely mad and piss you off to the point where you say things that aren’t very nice, but trust me you’ll regret every bad thing you’ve ever said to them once something like this happens. Don’t wait til it’s too late
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